Here (adverb): Used when introducing something or someone 5 years since deciding to start a family, 4 pregnancies, 3 losses, us 2 throughout and now this little 1. James and I are beyond thrilled that our countdown is now over. Our daughter, Ellissa …
Unsolicited
Fourth (numerical): Constituting of number four in a sequence Dear Friend, I don’t know how to do this, to write this blog that I have spent weeks attempting and abandoning in my head. Try as I might, there is no …
Launch Day
Launch (verb): To start or set in motion Dear actual-real-life, someone-other-than-me reader, So it’s here: Tuesday 9th June 2020, it’s “launch” day for my blog. No party, no fanfare, just a few messages to let friends and family know that …
Our Summer’s Day
Neonatal Death (medical): when a baby dies in the first 28 days of life. The neonatal mortality rate in England in 2018 was 2.8 deaths per 1,000 live births It is so hard to document my last week with Summer, …
Ignorance is Indeed, Bliss
Ignorance (noun): lack of knowledge or information I wrote this last year and posted it on Facebook for Baby Loss Awareness week. I remember writing it and feeling very brave, but as soon as I clicked “post” I closed the …
My Baby – The Unfiltered View
Filter (noun): a screen or layer which selectively absorbs some of its components We did toy with nicknaming my second bump “Boccy 2”, but I didn’t like the number element. It felt like a replacement or made me think of …
My Beautiful Bunch of Cells
First Trimester (medicine): The first trimester begins on the first day of your last period and lasts until the end of week 12 of pregnancy. This is an email I sent to one of my close friends, two weeks after …
Three Little Pigs
The Three Little Pigs: a fable about three pigs who built three houses of different materials I thought of this title, as it makes me smile to liken our babies to a children’s story. Like the three little pigs, our …