Guilty (adjective): Justly chargeable with a particular fault or error Opening Statement I write because it helps me to process all my feelings, to assess what’s really wrong. Yesterday, I felt so low, I didn’t even want to write. That’s …
Baby Loss Awareness Quiz
Awareness (noun): Concern about and well-informed interest in a particular situation or development I’ve been thinking about what to do for Baby Loss Awareness Week 2020. Last year (was it really only a year ago?), I outed myself on Facebook …
I Hate (the EPA)U
Trauma (noun): A deeply distressing or disturbing experience URGH. I had to return to the Early Pregnancy Assessment Unit (EPAU) today. Even though: I’m not pregnant I have so many traumatic memories of the place It’s a couple of hundred …
Too High A Price
Payment-in-kind (Finance): The use of a good or service as payment instead of cash Sometimes, I get a thought or a phrase stuck in my head and it goes round and round, so I thought I’d write it down: We …
Six Months of Summer
Reminisce (verb): To indulge in recollection of past events It is exactly six months today since Summer passed away and it’s three months since I launched Mumoirs. So today, I’d like to take some time to reflect. In all honesty, …
My Best Friend
Going nuclear (figurative): To get extremely angry and start behaving in a forceful or irrational way I am quite frankly, stunned, at the number of ‘my best friend’ stories amongst the bereaved mothers club. Best friends who we grew up …
Hiding From Hope
Cruel (adjective): Wilfully causing pain or suffering to others People have reflected that my blogs seem sadder lately, which I’ve found surprising. I actually think I’m doing better. Yes these are the thoughts in my head, yes I’m still sad …
5 months in, 5 months out
Spam (noun):Unsolicited messages sent over the Internet, typically to a large number of users Today is a milestone, not a real one, but my made-up one. This is how my mind works, it just creates something from nothing. Like last …
The Final Taboo
Ball and chain (noun): A heavy metal ball secured by a chain to the leg of a prisoner. Used to convey the idea that something is a crippling encumbrance This morning I’ve revisited the “Am I even a Mum?” frame …
Summer Nights
Summer Nights (song): A popular song from the musical Grease. Written by Jim Jacobs and Warren Casey, its best-known version was recorded by John Travolta and Olivia Newton-John Summer loving had me a blast Summer loving happened so fast I …