Guilty (adjective): Justly chargeable with a particular fault or error Opening Statement I write because it helps me to process all my feelings, to assess what’s really wrong. Yesterday, I felt so low, I didn’t even want to write. That’s …
Perfect
Content (adjective): In a state of peaceful happiness I’m slowly figuring out why this hurts so much. There are the obvious things to be sad about: losing another child, not being a mum, the fear and uncertainty of what’s to …
Life on Hold
Best laid plans (idiom):An expression used to signify the futility of making detailed plans when the ability to fully or even partially execute them is uncertain We’re supposed to be enjoying the pre-child years, even though we’d rather have a child. It’s …
Hiding From Hope
Cruel (adjective): Wilfully causing pain or suffering to others People have reflected that my blogs seem sadder lately, which I’ve found surprising. I actually think I’m doing better. Yes these are the thoughts in my head, yes I’m still sad …
The Window
Triple glazing (noun, British): Triple glazing is effectively three panes of glass. This means it has an extra layer of glass to insulate your home over double glazing I’ve spoken previously about feeling like I’m stood outside a window, peering in. Glimpsing …
Then and Now
Defining moment (noun): An event which typifies or determines all subsequent related occurrences For anyone dealing with bereavement, there’s always a ‘then and now’, a ‘before and after’. I’m feeling so angry at the moment, I can’t shift it, so I’m …
Helpless
Hope (verb): Want something to happen or be the case Caveat: As always, all thoughts, musings, anger are my own. I know that it’s difficult knowing what to say – it’s now four months since Summer passed away and I …
Grief Disguised
Disguise (verb): Give a different appearance in order to conceal one’s identity We all know so little about grief. We know it’s not linear, that it can hit you at any time. But I think the majority of us who …